Journal #1 (Beginning of the End)
My senior year has started in a bit of an odd way. I can’t entirely complain on my social life since my friends and I constantly hang out. To think that I’ve already spent most of my senior experience hanging out with sophomores and freshman, playing yugioh on friday nights, and basically just relaxing. Even though it doesn't sound like much it means a lot to me to have my friends around and just nerd out since that's one of the few things i excel at.
As for my health I wish that had started off better. Over the summer I ended a very unhealthy relationship that gave me a bunch of stress and unfortunately affected my health as well. I’m glad it's over and i’m ready to move forward with my life, I just wish I didn’t have a constant reminder of how bad it was.
On a lighter note I have just recently been hired by the migrant program to take part in their work study program. In this program students such as juniors and seniors work at certain school locations where they will learn the value of money and work.
So overall my senior year has been not too bad, not many complaints and there's still much to look forward to. As president of anime club i look forward to making it a great year for myself and all my little disciples before i graduate. I have a bunch of fundraising ideas and i hope that i can accomplish most of them. I also look forward to visiting universities that i will potentially attend. At the moment I am considering going to UCSB where i can get my degree in history and politics. Another potential university that i consider is UC Berkeley it seems like such a nice school but I’m not sure if i can get in. It's worth a shot what do i have to lose?
I look forward to all the stupid yugioh tournaments that i hope to enter with my friends. Since i found out there's a place that holds these competitions i’ve been dying to go give it a try and see how far i get.
I want to pass all my classes with a good grade. It's something that everyone obviously wants, but in order to get into the school that i want i have to put in the effort. I know that no one is perfect so making mistakes is a guarantee. When i do make a mistake however i will hope to learn from it and grow as a person.
With each passing day my time as a child begins to fade away and the shadowing claws of adulthood come closer and closer. I know once high school is over the big question comes into play… What's next? For now i have a small idea of what i hope to accomplish, but the possibilities are ever expanding and my plans can change as i develop. As i write this down i begin to realize that what i wanted to do as a career when i was a freshman is completely different from what it is now. This just shows me that i have grown as a person and my ideals are nothing to what they were 3-4 years ago. I look forward to completing my senior year and graduating at least in the top 10% of my class. After that i don’t know what's next but i look forward to figuring it out.
As for my health I wish that had started off better. Over the summer I ended a very unhealthy relationship that gave me a bunch of stress and unfortunately affected my health as well. I’m glad it's over and i’m ready to move forward with my life, I just wish I didn’t have a constant reminder of how bad it was.
On a lighter note I have just recently been hired by the migrant program to take part in their work study program. In this program students such as juniors and seniors work at certain school locations where they will learn the value of money and work.
So overall my senior year has been not too bad, not many complaints and there's still much to look forward to. As president of anime club i look forward to making it a great year for myself and all my little disciples before i graduate. I have a bunch of fundraising ideas and i hope that i can accomplish most of them. I also look forward to visiting universities that i will potentially attend. At the moment I am considering going to UCSB where i can get my degree in history and politics. Another potential university that i consider is UC Berkeley it seems like such a nice school but I’m not sure if i can get in. It's worth a shot what do i have to lose?
I look forward to all the stupid yugioh tournaments that i hope to enter with my friends. Since i found out there's a place that holds these competitions i’ve been dying to go give it a try and see how far i get.
I want to pass all my classes with a good grade. It's something that everyone obviously wants, but in order to get into the school that i want i have to put in the effort. I know that no one is perfect so making mistakes is a guarantee. When i do make a mistake however i will hope to learn from it and grow as a person.
With each passing day my time as a child begins to fade away and the shadowing claws of adulthood come closer and closer. I know once high school is over the big question comes into play… What's next? For now i have a small idea of what i hope to accomplish, but the possibilities are ever expanding and my plans can change as i develop. As i write this down i begin to realize that what i wanted to do as a career when i was a freshman is completely different from what it is now. This just shows me that i have grown as a person and my ideals are nothing to what they were 3-4 years ago. I look forward to completing my senior year and graduating at least in the top 10% of my class. After that i don’t know what's next but i look forward to figuring it out.
Journal #2 (Taking the Good With the Bad)
Where did I go wrong? It's almost the end of the semester and senioritis has hit me so hard. I have a lot of work to catch up on. As the saying goes if you fail to plan you plan to fail, but enough about that let's move on to some more fun stuff.
The “Duel King Tournament” starts on Friday when thanksgiving break is over and I’m pretty excited. It might be a tournament of my own creation, but it's still a tournament none the less. Plus the way I’ve made it we don’t have to worry about all the regulations and forbidden lists that actual tournaments place. Not to mention that we all put in some money to get some awesome prize cards for the 1st, 2nd, and 3rd place winners.
It's weird to think that a card game is such a big part of my life, but i guess that's just how being a weeb works. I recently bought my little brother a set of cards and he loves it. He's always asking me to duel with him and even though it can get annoying at times i love how happy he is playing the game. The card game isn’t the only place where me and my little brother see eye to eye. Lately the two of us have been getting along more than we ever have. Again he can be a bit annoying because he is the younger sibling after all; but i still let him hang out with my friends since they play the game too and he's always trying to get in on a game so he can practice and get better.
In other news I’ve been having a lot of self doubt lately. I often find myself questioning who I am, if the decisions I’ve made are the right ones, and what's my purpose for being in people's lives. I feel like this is just something that most teenagers think about at some point as their growing up figuring things out so I don’t think I should be blowing this out of proportion. So instead of sitting down and contemplating whether or not i should be thinking this I can just go to the closest corner store and get myself some swiss rolls and a bag of beef jerky.
Aside from all the gloomy teenage crap I’m going to look back at some changes since I last wrote a journal entry. Just the other day I finished applying to UC Berkeley, Davis, Irvine, and Santa Barbara. With any luck I’ll be able to get into one and then pursue my dream of one day being a U.S Senator. Another change is that my health has made a turn for the best. I don’t wake up feeling like crap anymore and I’m just in an overall better condition.
Overall things keep changing and there's still plenty of time fo fix my mistakes. Senior year might be half over, but my life is barely about to begin.
The “Duel King Tournament” starts on Friday when thanksgiving break is over and I’m pretty excited. It might be a tournament of my own creation, but it's still a tournament none the less. Plus the way I’ve made it we don’t have to worry about all the regulations and forbidden lists that actual tournaments place. Not to mention that we all put in some money to get some awesome prize cards for the 1st, 2nd, and 3rd place winners.
It's weird to think that a card game is such a big part of my life, but i guess that's just how being a weeb works. I recently bought my little brother a set of cards and he loves it. He's always asking me to duel with him and even though it can get annoying at times i love how happy he is playing the game. The card game isn’t the only place where me and my little brother see eye to eye. Lately the two of us have been getting along more than we ever have. Again he can be a bit annoying because he is the younger sibling after all; but i still let him hang out with my friends since they play the game too and he's always trying to get in on a game so he can practice and get better.
In other news I’ve been having a lot of self doubt lately. I often find myself questioning who I am, if the decisions I’ve made are the right ones, and what's my purpose for being in people's lives. I feel like this is just something that most teenagers think about at some point as their growing up figuring things out so I don’t think I should be blowing this out of proportion. So instead of sitting down and contemplating whether or not i should be thinking this I can just go to the closest corner store and get myself some swiss rolls and a bag of beef jerky.
Aside from all the gloomy teenage crap I’m going to look back at some changes since I last wrote a journal entry. Just the other day I finished applying to UC Berkeley, Davis, Irvine, and Santa Barbara. With any luck I’ll be able to get into one and then pursue my dream of one day being a U.S Senator. Another change is that my health has made a turn for the best. I don’t wake up feeling like crap anymore and I’m just in an overall better condition.
Overall things keep changing and there's still plenty of time fo fix my mistakes. Senior year might be half over, but my life is barely about to begin.
Journal #3 (Growing Up)
The last semester of my last school year is finally here. School has given me some of the best and some of the worst memories I can think of, but at the same time it's what's helped me grow as a person.
Being that it’s the last semester I am well aware that life truly begins right after graduation. That being said, I have only four months left to get my life in order and figure out what I’m going to do once I’m no longer in school. I think that’s the most terrifying part of it all; knowing that you have so little time to prepare for quite possibly the biggest milestone of your life, becoming an adult.
Like most high school students I do have a picture of what I want to do after graduation. Although I applied to 8 colleges in total, the one I truly want to go to and see myself attending is UC Santa Barbara. I want to go for the great Computer Science Program. If I am able to be a part of it then I can get my Masters in only 5 years. I also want to minor in Political Science because I want to be a politician and the two fields of study, I believe will give me more credibility in the field.
I feel like I’m getting ahead of myself since I haven’t even graduated yet and there’s still time to think about what I’m going to do when I graduate, but I also have to figure out what I’m going to do with my remaining time here in school.
For the basics I definitely want to finish all of my classes with as best grades I can get. This last semester I finished all of my classes, but I was completely disappointed. I got the lowest GPA I have ever gotten (3.0) and despite the fact that it’s a passing grade I am deeply disappointed in myself because I know I can do better. That aside I have made the decision to do better this time around that way I can have better grades to show to both my parents and my potential colleges.
That’s school stuff, but there are still things I want to do with my friends before I leave altogether. Seeing as I only applied to colleges that were far away I won’t be seeing my friends much after I leave. The main thing I want to do is spend my summer with my friends. Last summer I was unable to hang out with my friends due to the fact that I had a girlfriend (who wasn’t all to great might I add.) So this summer I want to spend it with my friends the way I did 2 years before. That was quite possibly one of the best summers of my life and I have so many fond memories of it.
I think the overall view of where my life is right now would be turning a new chapter. I have to finish everything in this town before I can go on to the next so to speak and I have a limited amount to do so. Regardless I look forward to the memories I am going to make with the remaining time I have left and with the new adventures that lie ahead for me.
Being that it’s the last semester I am well aware that life truly begins right after graduation. That being said, I have only four months left to get my life in order and figure out what I’m going to do once I’m no longer in school. I think that’s the most terrifying part of it all; knowing that you have so little time to prepare for quite possibly the biggest milestone of your life, becoming an adult.
Like most high school students I do have a picture of what I want to do after graduation. Although I applied to 8 colleges in total, the one I truly want to go to and see myself attending is UC Santa Barbara. I want to go for the great Computer Science Program. If I am able to be a part of it then I can get my Masters in only 5 years. I also want to minor in Political Science because I want to be a politician and the two fields of study, I believe will give me more credibility in the field.
I feel like I’m getting ahead of myself since I haven’t even graduated yet and there’s still time to think about what I’m going to do when I graduate, but I also have to figure out what I’m going to do with my remaining time here in school.
For the basics I definitely want to finish all of my classes with as best grades I can get. This last semester I finished all of my classes, but I was completely disappointed. I got the lowest GPA I have ever gotten (3.0) and despite the fact that it’s a passing grade I am deeply disappointed in myself because I know I can do better. That aside I have made the decision to do better this time around that way I can have better grades to show to both my parents and my potential colleges.
That’s school stuff, but there are still things I want to do with my friends before I leave altogether. Seeing as I only applied to colleges that were far away I won’t be seeing my friends much after I leave. The main thing I want to do is spend my summer with my friends. Last summer I was unable to hang out with my friends due to the fact that I had a girlfriend (who wasn’t all to great might I add.) So this summer I want to spend it with my friends the way I did 2 years before. That was quite possibly one of the best summers of my life and I have so many fond memories of it.
I think the overall view of where my life is right now would be turning a new chapter. I have to finish everything in this town before I can go on to the next so to speak and I have a limited amount to do so. Regardless I look forward to the memories I am going to make with the remaining time I have left and with the new adventures that lie ahead for me.
Journal #4 (Looking Back)
Well this is the end. I have little to no time left to finish this thing we teenagers know as high school and it feels both scary and exciting at the same time. With all that’s happened to me in the past 4 years I’m glad to say that I made it out alive.
The first year when I got here I was a young immature Catholic kid who cussed way to much, was closed minded and didn’t really care about anyone but myself. I remember walking into my first class and feeling like I was the best there was, not knowing that I wasn’t the only one who was academically gifted. During this first year I met two teachers that changed my life. Mr. Hendricks was one of the coolest teachers I have ever met. He was a laid back guy who let me use his classroom for what was then known as Conspiracy Club. He taught me not take life so seriously and to just be more calm. Mr. Peterson taught me that being smart is good, but don’t forget that everyone still has their weak spots.
My second year was most probably the most influential year of them all. I got my first girlfriend this year, I failed my first class this year, I lost a lot of friends and made a lot of new ones. At the core this year was almost a complete change in myself and social surroundings. I began to lose a lot of the ties I had with myself from the year before and make myself in a completely new person.
By my third year I probably wouldn’t be able to recognize myself. I grew out my hair I dressed completely different and I had a new attitude towards the world. I soon became the somewhat of a leader in my group and it felt nice being in charge for once. I didn’t make the best of decisions this year, but I did acquire some stories for later down the road.
Now here we are, the last year. What can I say about this year? Frankly it's been the most fun and moving year of them all. I started my YouTube channel after talking about it for two years. I was able to have one more final change in perspective of the world and I have to say it's the best one so far. I don’t feel bitter anymore and I learned that the world doesn’t owe anyone anything. If something doesn’t go your way then it just wasn’t meant for you. I used to see things as “If someone has something, but doesn’t deserve it, then why don’t I, if i deserve it?” I think the biggest change this year would have to be how I carry myself. Be confident not cocky, Be proud not arrogant and be smart not a smartass.
Well these four years have definitely changed me and I’m glad they did. I don’t think I can imagine myself the way I was and I don’t think my younger self could see me the way I turned out (an open minded agnostic leader type figure.) Well these four years are almost up and I have four more ahead in college. Hopefully these four have prepared me for the next four.
The first year when I got here I was a young immature Catholic kid who cussed way to much, was closed minded and didn’t really care about anyone but myself. I remember walking into my first class and feeling like I was the best there was, not knowing that I wasn’t the only one who was academically gifted. During this first year I met two teachers that changed my life. Mr. Hendricks was one of the coolest teachers I have ever met. He was a laid back guy who let me use his classroom for what was then known as Conspiracy Club. He taught me not take life so seriously and to just be more calm. Mr. Peterson taught me that being smart is good, but don’t forget that everyone still has their weak spots.
My second year was most probably the most influential year of them all. I got my first girlfriend this year, I failed my first class this year, I lost a lot of friends and made a lot of new ones. At the core this year was almost a complete change in myself and social surroundings. I began to lose a lot of the ties I had with myself from the year before and make myself in a completely new person.
By my third year I probably wouldn’t be able to recognize myself. I grew out my hair I dressed completely different and I had a new attitude towards the world. I soon became the somewhat of a leader in my group and it felt nice being in charge for once. I didn’t make the best of decisions this year, but I did acquire some stories for later down the road.
Now here we are, the last year. What can I say about this year? Frankly it's been the most fun and moving year of them all. I started my YouTube channel after talking about it for two years. I was able to have one more final change in perspective of the world and I have to say it's the best one so far. I don’t feel bitter anymore and I learned that the world doesn’t owe anyone anything. If something doesn’t go your way then it just wasn’t meant for you. I used to see things as “If someone has something, but doesn’t deserve it, then why don’t I, if i deserve it?” I think the biggest change this year would have to be how I carry myself. Be confident not cocky, Be proud not arrogant and be smart not a smartass.
Well these four years have definitely changed me and I’m glad they did. I don’t think I can imagine myself the way I was and I don’t think my younger self could see me the way I turned out (an open minded agnostic leader type figure.) Well these four years are almost up and I have four more ahead in college. Hopefully these four have prepared me for the next four.